I tell you this because this is not my first attempt at blogging. And actually, my first attempt was pretty successful for quite some time. I was in the process of losing a lot of weight and was very passionate about health and that's what I hear makes a good writer/blogger. Then life got in the way and my health journey and blogging experience was interrupted.
I tried several times more, but I felt like my blogs didn't have a focus. I tried the health thing again, but things weren't going the same as they had before. I have so many interests that it seems like I should be able to find something to passionately write about.
My boyfriend, Josh, and I were having this conversation at his birthday dinner Tuesday night and I was saying I have so many hobbies that I share with other people. Reading, cats, Jamberry nail wraps, crafts, photography. The list goes on, but these are definitely the main points. Josh's response was, "So you're a nerd," and I said, "Everyone's a nerd about something." That line comes from my friend, former boss, and continuous mentor, Jennifer. (I asked her permission to use the line as the name of this blog.)
I've been thinking for a couple of days about how to write this blog and feel like it was going to be focused. And then it came to me today. Last week I wrote the following status on Facebook:
As someone who suffers from depression, and sometimes pretty severely, I had an amazing revelation today. I realized that on a daily basis, truly daily, I have the conscious thought that I love my life. I believe that right now I am probably the happiest I have ever been, the most comfortable I with myself that I have ever been. It's a wonderful realization to come too.
Number one reason I'm so happy and actually think out loud that I love my life is because of my home life. I love and enjoy the family I've built. The other reason is because for years I've been saying that I MUST find an appropriate work-life balance. I was working an awful amount of hours and completely neglecting Josh and other aspects at home. I was able to justify why I was working so much, but when it came down to it one valid reason always turned into another valid reason. I realized the valid reasons were never going to go away.
I also always had it in my mind what I thought other people thought I should be doing with my time. Other people's opinions consumed me. Consumed me to the point that I really lost sight of what my own opinion was.
And one day I just decided no more. I decided to set unspoken limits. I started walking out of work at a reasonable and preset time. I started saying yes to only the things that I really wanted to do and no to the things that I really didn't.
While there are always things that we would be happy if they changed (having more money for instance), I can say that the changes that I've made are so important to me and have helped make the life that I love. I would be okay if nothing else changed.
Thinking of it this way, it came to me today what my passion truly is. The things I mentioned earlier in this post are definitely my interests. Having a balanced life to be able to do all of them is my passion. And so, that is going to be the focus of my new blog. I will be blogging about what I'm doing and how I'm using my balanced life.
The ratio of text to pictures in this post is definitely NOT what I usually like to see in one of my projects, but this idea just kind of came to me and I wanted to get it out while the thoughts were fresh. For tonight I will leave you with this thought and I hope that you will check back in with me to see how things are going. And don't hesitate to share because chances are, you know a nerd.